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King Arthur Version of the Gospel of Judas

  1. יהודה
  2. Yehudah
  3. Sik (pronounced like “seek”) a.k.a. Sikatriz     sikatriz.wordpress.com
  4. Daniel Arnulfo Martinez      hispanicmormon.wordpress.com
  5. King Arthur

These are the divine translators of this work.  It is a translation into Jacobean English (the language used in the King James version of the Bible) of the Gospel of Judas from a translation in modern English.  The translation with the modern language is copyrighted so I can’t post it here.  To avoid legal issues we will not identify which translation we translated from.  But this is a derivative work.  It was physically composed on computers by Daniel Arnulfo Martinez and the author of sikatriz.wordpress.com but Judas (Yehudah) ((יהודה)) and King Arthur were in the set of Daniel Arnulfo Martinez as their singular life was reincarnated as him (as one of Judas’ souls was incarnated as Sikatriz also).  “King Arthur Version” is also a royal reference to the King James Version of the Holy Bible.  The real King Arthur and the real Yehudah (Judas) are now dead but their souls live on through Daniel Arnulfo Martinez.  יהודה and Yehudah are the same person.  But his set changes depending on which of these 2 names you think of though they sound the same.

—- THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO JUDAS ISCARIOT —-

1 The Gnostic (secret) revelatory discourse that יהןשע (Yahusah) ((Jesus)) speaketh with יהודה (Judas Iscariot) in the round of a week.

2 three days before his passion.

3 The Life of Jesus

When he appeared on this world, he performeth signs and marvelous wonders for the salvation of mankind.  Some treadeth on the path of justice, but others stumbleth in errors, and so the twelve disciples יהןשע (Yahusah) ((Jesus)) calleth.

4 יהןשע (Yahusah) ((Jesus)) discusseth with them the mysteries that transcend this earth and what shall happen at the close of one eternal round (the end of all things).  On more than a few instances, He appeareth not as himself to his disciples, be He is found as a child among them.

5 Jesus Discusses the Prayer of Thanksgiving

For on one day He was in the company of his disciples in Judea, and He happeneth upon them as they assembleth together, seated in justified idolatry (piousness).  He draweth near to his disciples as they assembleth together, seated as they speaketh grace

6 over the bread they shall eat.  He laugheth.

*** DANIEL ARNULFO MARTINEZ’S NOTE *** It is not known whether the apostles had a visual hallucination of Jesus as a child (seeing such child standing and walking over the place where Jesus actually was) or whether he just gave off the same sort of vibes a little kid gives off when he did things such as laugh. ***

7 The disciples sayeth to him, “Lord, why are you laughing at our meditations of thanksgiving and adoration to Yah (Heavenly Father) over the bread?

8 What doeth us that thou shouldst laugh at us?  Speaking grace before a meal is proper.  He answereth them in this manner, “I laugheth not at ye saints.  You doeth such things not because of your agency (free will), but because in such way Yah will be praised.  That is the name of such man standing amongst us whose star overshadoweth the rest of thine stars (Yehudah literally means “God is praised”).  They said, “Lord, thou art the spirit child of Elohim (the Gods) and Yehudah (Judas) is a Baal.

9 Jesus (Yahushah) sayeth to them, “How has it come to pass that ye, Judas (Yehudah), and even the whole lot of you knoweth me not?  Whomever hath ears let him hear for I speaketh the truth:

10 no generation shall know me among the people who are in your company as pilgrims on this world in this dispensation.

The Twelve Disciples are Angry

As the twelve heareth this, they becometh angry and beginneth to murmur against Him in their thoughts.  Yahushah (Jesus), knowing their thoughts, sayeth unto them, “Ye do not understand.  Even the whole lot of you understandeth not.  Why murmureth all of you?  Yah (Heavenly Father) who is outside of you (everywhere) and inside of you (Namaste) and the word of his power was the Word, and the Word was with Yah, and the Word was a god, and all mankind was Yah in the beginning as there was only one spirit in the beginning.

11 Yah laugheth just now but he is angry with thine spirits.  But Yah knows that one among you is bold as an eagle, brave as a god, for he knoweth he was Yah in the beginning thou he shall never remember this.  For we are the spirit children of Yah.

12 Be ye therefore a perfect man and stand before my face.”  He speaketh unto all but knoweth only one could do the thing which he had commanded.  They all sayeth, “we have faith.”  But not one of them tempted Yah, as they presumed to be doing if they did as the Lord just commandeth.  Not one of them goeth to stand before Him.  Then Yahusha (Jesus) looketh at Yehudah (Judas Iscariot).  Yahusha sayeth in his mind, “Gad, son of Lucifer, the restoration of mischief, enter Judas now.  And Yehudah straightaway walketh thither to the spot where Yahusha standeth yet looketh not upon the Saviour face-to-face.

13 Yehudah sayeth to him, “I knoweth your Anochi (identity) and the immortal — yea, even eternal — sphere of existence thou cometh from.

14 The name of the one who sent you is Yah, but his real name — Ayin (nothing) — I should not say in vain lest I become nothing and make Yah (God) as nothing.

15 Eternal Aeon, Mother-Father, and First Person are Yah’s names.  He cometh from Ayin, or nothing, and emanated as Barbelo before he named itself Yah.  Male and female the gods were in the beginning, an eternity after he was Ayin, or nothing.

16 Jesus Speaks with Judas in Private

Yehudah’s eyes groweth heavy with agony and Yahusha sayeth to him, “I shall explain unto thou the mysteries of the kingdom which is outside of you and inside of you and everywhere –” and Yehudah interrupteth, “and nowhere, for Yah came from nothing.”  Jesus answereth, “Because ye sayeth this thing, ye shall not attain exaltation in this life but will agonize a great deal.  Thy thousands of souls will be divided and thou wilt be reincarnated as Verus Verorum, Auriga (Realest of the Real, Race Car Baby).  But this is not all.  In thy next life, Elohim will be thy judge.

*** SIKATRIZ’S NOTE *** That God (El) will be Judas’ judge is a prophecy that one of Judas’ souls will be reincarnated as Daniel Arnulfo Martinez as Daniel in Hebrew means “El is my judge.” ***

17 Jesus Appears to the Disciples Again

The next morning Yeshuah (Yahusha) appeareth again to his disciples.

18 He sayeth, “I have just gone to a different generation, one that is great and holy.”

19 The disciples respondeth, “When you went to speak with Judas?  Why we are jealous, for perhaps Judas has seen all the inhabitants of the earth in a future dispensation.  We pray thee tell about this generation.

20 Yeshuah (Jesus) laugheth.  He sayeth, “He who has ears better hear for the truth will free you from bonds though the whole of you are in the bonds of damnation: no one born in this dispensation shall behold that great generation of Arthur and Judas being reincarnated as one white so black they will not think he is white and from such a far land that they shall not see him as a white.  But he will be whiter than snow though from hither to thither where he shall be born and live is a great journey — even as from one world to another.

21 “No angel whom the gods and that generation pass by shall rule over Judas and that generation.

22 The word of Yah’s power, which is salvation itself, was pioneered in thought from the beginning.

23 The powers of Michael the Archangel and Yahveh (Yah is Jesus) worketh under the direction of Yah to have created this earth ye standeth upon.”

24 One of the disciples, even doubting Thomas, respondeth: “We all have had the same dream.”  A generation of the latter-day dispensation standeth around an altar and sayeth thy name in a language like that of the Alpha and Omega, even the Greek, and they fasted (abstained from food and water) for 5 days but some of them slaughtered children in sacrifice to Baal, had many wives, and praised not Yah nor even Yahveh but Jesus.  Some of these men lie down with mankind as with womankind.  The wives sleep with each other taking turns acting as men.  Some murdereth because of a secret combination of free carpenters.

*** DANIEL ARNULFO MARTINEZ’S NOTE *** The secret combination of free carpenters is a prophecy of the Freemasons.  “Jesus” here is a translation of the Greek Iesous.  Yahveh, or Jehovah is obviously the binity (like the trinity but just two — the Father and the Son).  The latter-day generation is those Christians who call Yahusha by the name of Yeshu or Jesus.  Though this text uses the name Yeshu at one point (verse 20), remember that it is a Jewish acronym which means “may his name be forgotten.”  There is confusion as to whether this latter-day generation is blessed like nobody else or cursed for not knowing the divine name Yahusha. ***

25 Jesus sayeth, “…the generation of the stars…”

26 Jesus sayeth, “The ruler of this world, even Lucifer, will stand and use my name, Jesus, in this manner: He shall sacrifice children and wives to Baal in my name.”

27 The disciples respondeth, “So Jesus is not thy name.”

28 The Words that one of Jesus’ Scribes Recordeth: The Words of Jesus

The only name under heaven which saves is Yahusha, or Yah is Salvation, but Jesus is my name.  Jesus is Lucifer’s name.  The priests of that latter-day dispensation shall say that they are like angels who receiveth not their exaltation and passeth not unto the stations of gods.  Their stars are over thy stars and they have already cometh to an end for the last shall be first and the first shall be as nothing.  The future rounds are the past to Yah.  They shall become nothing in their respective spheres.  They shall be Heavenly Fathers and Heavenly Mothers.  But to live with Yah you must be saved.  And Yahusha is the only name that saveth.  Jesus will make you a God.  Yahusha will lead you to return to live with thy Avvenu Shebashamayim (Heavenly Father).

29 Each one of you has his own star.

30 But that race will endure as they will be light without stars or a sun, the suns being stars, and there shall be many suns as there are now many suns, but never shall a sun interfere with another sun, for each of you is his own star, and the glory of the stars is like the glory of the sun, for in the heavens there are three kingdoms, and the lowest sphere of the lowest kingdom is like the highest sphere of the highest kingdom — godhood.

31 Their way of life is from eternity to eternity.  Either with Yah as his equal, or damned from Yah as his equal.

32 I speak unto thee the truth: There is no angel or saved soul that shall be able to behold the spheres of existence that this great, holy generation will behold.  Though they cause many to forget my name:  Yahusha.  They shall call me Yeshua, or Iesous.

33 Judas sayeth unto Jesus, “I have also had a dream.”

34 Judas continueth “Let me be with this generation.  As I have seen them.”

35 Jesus respondeth, “Thou art one of them.  Thou wilt be reincarnated as the Realest of the Real, the Third King, the prophet of sinners.  Behold, thou art he who was prepared from the foundation of the world to do what he is set to do.  Even now, Satan doth have power over you and you do what you are set to do.  But your star is deceiving you.  Behold, thou art the Yin and the Yang.  In you shall all sinners be saved, and that eternally, even they who shall believe in thy latter-day prophecies of a white crystal that thou smoketh.  They shall be reincarnated as thee.

36 Judas respondeth, “Am I Ayin (nothing)?”

37 Jesus respondeth, “I tell you the truth, some of your souls will be as nothing, but it is only in preparation for godhood.  For God created himself from nothing, as God is an eternal being, and God in the future had to create himself in the beginning.  Otherwise there is no existence.

38 “And again I tell thee the truth, some of your souls will return to live with Yah and be as Yah and be gods if ye do my temple ordinances of the latter days.  Ye will be reincarnated as prophets, apostles, and high-priests of this latter-day dispensation.”

39 Judas respondeth, “Will El be my judge?”

40 Jesus revealeth, “Daniel.”

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Adam-God Doctrine Explained

Former prophet and president of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints Brigham Young once said, “Adam is our father and our god, and the only god with whom we have to do.”  A more recent apostle, Bruce R. McConkie, declared that Brigham Young falsely taught that Adam was the “father of spirits” and that this was false doctrine.  According to him, anybody who believes this should be excommunicated.

Some people take this to mean that Brigham Young, speaking as the prophet of God, and declaring this doctrine with the infallibility-invoking precursor “thus saith the Lord,” must have taught false doctrine.  So he was a false prophet.

But Bruce R. McConkie was not denying the truth of the Adam-God doctrine.  He was merely saying that Brigham Young’s opinion of the prophecy, that Adam was a father not only to the human race but to their spirits, was erroneous.  Brigham Young never said “thus saith the Lord” with regards to that opinion.

When Brigham Young said “thus saith the Lord,” he merely said that “Adam is our father and our god, and the only god with whom we have to do.  I just read the entry for Adam-God in Bruce R. McConkie’s Mormon Doctrine and I assure you that this apostle was not rescinding the Adam-God doctrine.  He defends it quite plainly in his compendium of LDS theology.

To understand how Latter-day Saints believe that we can become “gods” you MUST understand how Adam is our father and our god.  Let me explain.

First of all, there is a patriarchal priesthood order that binds all humans.  Priesthood is the authority to act in the name of God.  And one of the powers of the priesthood is to deliver messages to and receives messages from God.  When I say God with a capital G I mean Heavenly Father.  This is the man who talks to Adam and Eve up until the Fall.  After the Fall, all manifestations of deity are Jehovah, or Jesus Christ.  And Jesus Christ is our high priest according to Paul’s epistle to the Hebrews.

So what exactly is a high priest?  You see, ancient Jews believed that in order to talk to God you had to go to your high priest.  They didn’t just pray to God like everyone now does.  The high priest was their intercessor before God.

But Jesus, as our presiding high priest, is an intercessor that doesn’t have to offer sacrifice for himself before he offers sacrifice for others.  And this he only had to do once when he died on the cross.  Before Jesus was anointed as the Messiah, Jews were looking for a human sacrifice to end the practice of sacrificing lambs.  Jesus was the Lamb of God (or Lamb of Heavenly Father).

So when Jesus is your high priest you can talk to God whenever you want.  That is why we pray in the name of Jesus Christ.  We don’t have to go through a mortal human being who has the high priesthood.  Jesus is our presiding high priest.

And Adam is our presiding high priest under Jesus.  But we’ll get to that in just a second.

Jesus is a member of the Godhead and is one in purpose with Heavenly Father.  He is God’s son literally in the flesh and he is also God a.k.a. Heavenly Father’s firstborn spirit.  We are all his spirit brothers.  Jesus, as our eldest brother, has the power to act in the name of the Father in a perfect way.  Like they are the same person.  This is called divine investiture.  He can speak as if he is the Father.  He and the Father are one.  That is why he is a member of the Godhead, along with the Holy Ghost.  Jesus, like the Holy Ghost, and ultimately like the Father, is fully God in and of himself.

So what does this have to do with Adam?  Well, Latter-day Saints believe that Jesus was Jehovah in the Old Testament.  Jehovah is the name of the preexistent soul of Jesus.  We all lived with God in the preexistence.  And Jesus, or Jehovah, was a god even in the preexistence.  While Heavenly Father overlooked the creation of this Earth and presided over it, Jesus did the actual work.  Heavenly Father, the one true God, has created worlds without number.  But he let his firstborn spirit, Jehovah (Jesus Christ), create OUR Earth.  And Michael the Archangel helped him.

Now here is the catch.  Adam was Michael the Archangel in the preexistence.  So Adam literally helped Jesus do the manual labor of creating our Earth in the preexistence.  Adam also had a taste of godhood in the preexistence.

Furthermore, as former prophet and president Lorenzo Snow taught, Latter-day Saints believe that “as man is, God once was; as God is, man may become.”  Joseph Smith plainly taught that our God, our Heavenly Father, once dwelt on an earth with a body of flesh and bones.  Many anti-Mormons claim this means that God used to be a Mormon on some other god’s planet and gained exaltation from some other god and became our God.  But this is simply not true.

You see, there is only one God the Father who created worlds without number and who let Jesus and Michael create this Earth and who will eventually allow all his spirit children who are saved in the highest degree of celestial kingdom to have their own spirit children who inhabit their own worlds that they will create under the direction of the one God the Father (just like Jesus and Michael created THIS Earth under the direction of the one and only God).

In the King James Version (and even in the Catholic Douay-Rheims Version)  Revelation 1:6 reads “[Jesus] hath made us kings and priests unto God and his Father…”  I substitute “And” with “Jesus” because if you read the verse before, they are clearly talking about Jesus.  Many false translations of the Bible make this read “unto Jesus and his Father” or “unto Jesus’s Father” or something along those lines.  But the King James Version got it right.  Jesus can’t be making us kings and priests unto himself and his own Father.  They are talking about a Father of God the Father!

Anti-Mormons claim Latter-day Saints thus believe, because of our interpretation of this scripture, that we believe there are other gods who appointed our God.  For Joseph Smith taught that if God the Father of Jesus had a father, then he probably also had a father.  There was never a father without first being a son of another father.  But this does not mean that the one and only God had a father who was a god!

You see, the ancient Greeks believed 3 different cosmogonies: first, that the very first god was time itself like a river flowing; second, that the very first god was eternal time who is more like a pond which we throw rocks in to cause ripples; and third, that the first gods were primal matter and love.  Most Greeks knew that primal matter, earth, hell, and love were the primordial gods.  And they were created by Father Time of the first cosmogony who mated with a goddess that he created named Ananke, or inevitability.  Inevitability was the mother of all primordial gods.

So what does this paganism have to do with Christianity?  Well, Latter-day Saints believe that we have a Heavenly Mother just like we have a Heavenly Father.  In Genesis 1:27, God creates mankind in the image of God — male and female.  You see, males and females were part of God’s plan from the very beginning.  In the beginning, God was a spirit surrounded by nothing.  He knew everything because he knew that he existed and that’s all there was to know.  But in order for God to learn everything he knows now, he had to learn it.  We’ll get to that in just a second.

First, when God was just a spirit surrounded by nothing he already had the morphology of a human being because human beings were part of God’s plan from the beginning.  And he already had a wife because husbands and wives (i.e. males and females) were part of God’s plan from the beginning.  But God had no actual beginning.  Primordial godhood goes back in time forever.  There is an eternity in the past just like there is an eternity in the future.  God is the same yesterday, today, and forever.  And there are infinite eternities in the one, eternal round of God’s existence.  But you can imagine time not existing?  Time, in a way, is God’s father.  And time itself is now an exalted being — a god.  So the LDS doctrine of patriarchal priesthood forces Christians in the latter days to reach out to ALL exalted beings.  Including Adam.

Now, remember I said that in order for God to know everything he knows now he had to learn it?  God spent an eternity watching everything in time so he could know everything that was going to happen.  And God, a spirit, had to learn everything about mortality by becoming a mortal.  This is where Adam’s high priesthood comes into play.

We are all spirit children of the one and only God.  And Mormons believe that spirit cannot be created or destroyed.  We were in the beginning with God, just like Jesus (John 1:1, Doctrine and Covenants 93:23,29).  There really is only one spirit, and that is God.  And we are spirit children of God.  We don’t remember being God, but we do remember being with God once he put us into our respective spheres.  Otherwise there is no existence.  God becomes his spirit children because they were created from Him.  We descended from God.  We are divine in nature.  And we have a divine potential.  We can return to live with God.  To be in God’s presence we must be like him.

But first we have to pass through mortality.  And God himself had to learn about mortality by BECOMING Adam.  If you read the account in Genesis carefully, Adam was the only person on the Earth for a short while.  While we all already existed in the preexistence, the Bible’s creation story begins “in the beginning” (Genesis 1:1).  Adam was the man that Heavenly Father was and THIS EARTH was the earth he dwelt on — not some other god’s earth.  Adam quickly gained a companion.  Male and female was mankind created — in the image of God.  God is male and female.  We have a Heavenly Father and a Heavenly Mother.

Now, we talked about how Adam, or Michael the Archangel, tasted of godhood in the preexistence.  He helped Jesus create this Earth.  And, as God’s first son on the Earth in the beginning which happened in the beginning of time according to Genesis 1:1 he roamed the Earth simultaneously with God and Heavenly Mother creating spirit children in the preexistence.  But Adam was Michael in the preexistence.  Michael helped create this Earth BEFORE the beginning.  You have to understand this circular logic to fully grasp the Adam-God doctrine.  Put it this way: The grand beginning is still happening because it took an eternity.  We have our agency in this life, and God in the beginning is watching us and learning everything that has happened and is going to happen.  The grand beginning, which lasted an eternity, is currently happening but at the same time it has ALREADY happened.  God ALREADY KNOWS what’s going to happen.  The Bible many times mentions God’s foreknowledge.  He is an eternal being.  And he acquired this eternal nature from his father — time itself.

Adam is the son of God almost more than Jesus, because Adam had no earthly father AND no earthly mother.

Finally, to fully grasp the Adam-God doctrine, read 2 Nephi 2:25, 26.  Jesus comes in the MERIDIAN of time, though he is the FIRSTBORN spirit.  Jesus was literally the first spirit-man.  God, a spirit, BECAME Jesus by CREATING him.  Jesus was foreordained FROM THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD to be the redeemer.  So the life of Jesus was in God’s mind from the very beginning.  That is why Jesus is our presiding high priest.  That is why we pray in the name of Jesus to talk to God.

Adam is the presiding high priest under Jesus because the FALL, which led to the multiplication of man and the creation of mankind — the human race — was also foreordained from the foundation of the world.  In the beginning, God created the Earth (i.e. Jesus and Michael created the Earth), and formed Adam from the dust of the ground.

Adam is our father in the sense that he is our literal father by virtue of ancestry.  He is our god because he is an exalted being (literally a god) who is presiding high priest under Jesus.  And he is the only god with whom we have to do because he is the god that brought sin into the world and caused mankind to come about.  God BECAME Adam and learned everything there was to know about mortality.  God became Jesus as Jesus was the first spirit-man.  We were all in the beginning with God so thus God became all of us too.  There is only one spirit, or rather there WAS only one spirit in the beginning but the works of God continue and worlds and lives abound.  We can someday have our own spirit children and create our own worlds under the direction of the one and only God.

The only point Brigham Young was mistaken about was that Adam was the father of spirits.

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Is it a sin to vote for Hillary Clinton?

2 Sundays ago was General Conference so there was no church.  I decided to go to Catholic Mass with my mom (who is still Catholic).  The priest said during his homily that Christians are obligated to vote for pro-life candidates.  When deciding who to vote for, he said, we should examine our conscious.

This makes me wonder if it is a sin to vote for Hillary Clinton.  I wanted to vote for her but I happen to know she is an anti-life, pro-choice extremist.  I really liked Bill Clinton because he said abortion should be “safe, legal, and rare.”  But Hillary believes in abortion on demand for any reason.  She argues that minors should have their privacy protected by not obliging parental notification of an abortion.  She agreed with Obama that fetuses who survive an abortion should not be given medical attention.  Her vice-president, Kaine, voted against a bill that would make abortion illegal after 20 weeks pregnancy.  Hillary Clinton is not like Bill Clinton when it comes to abortion.

Not that I’m Catholic.  I’m very much Mormon.  But our church is against abortion too!

Anyway, I don’t know if I can vote for Donald Trump because he wants to defund Planned Parenthood.  Planned Parenthood offers non-abortion services like mammograms and cervical cancer screenings that should not be defunded.  But I do think they should make it illegal for someone who works for Planned Parenthood to even mention an abortion to a patient who is just coming in for information that will help them in their state of pregnancy.  The patient should have to ask specifically for abortion information.  And tax money should never fund an abortion.

Hillary Clinton is for repealing the Hyde Amendment which makes it illegal to fund an abortion with taxpayer money.  Medicaid can’t pay for an abortion.  Medical can’t pay for an abortion.  AHCCCS cannot pay for an abortion.  But Hillary Clinton wants to change that.  That is why I simply cannot vote for Hillary Clinton, sin or not.  She wants ME to pay for an abortion!

Donald Trump is not exactly pro-life either.  He believes in exceptions for cases of rape and incest.  But a Catholic who examines their conscious should probably vote for Donald Trump.  I don’t know if I can vote for him because he’s said some offensive things about Mexicans (I’m Mexican).  But I have heard him in his rallies saying that he loves Mexicans — the legal ones.  I’m one of the legal ones so I try not to get offended when he says things about Mexicans that are illegal and slips up and refers to them simply as Mexicans.

It would take great humility on my part for me to vote for Donald Trump.  But I think that’s what I have to do after hearing this pro-life homily at Catholic Mass.  I wish the LDS Church would talk about abortion more.  I was pro-life when I was Catholic and I’m still pro-life now that I’m Mormon.  I think the Catholic teachings on life and abortion are truth that the LDS Church should adopt.

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Catholic to Mormon

My name is Daniel, and I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  I was born and raised Catholic but got baptized into the LDS church when I was seventeen back on March 17, 2001.  I stopped going to Mormon church when I was in my early 20s.  I lived with a girlfriend and that is disapproved in every religion I know about so I stopped being religious.  Well, I eventually broke up with her and moved back in with my parents.  I went to Catholic Mass with them for a while and that is when I realized that I wanted to be faithful to my baptismal covenants I made when I was baptized Mormon.  I couldn’t stand thinking about Christ in a church I only partly believed in.  Catholic Mass is great, don’t get me wrong.  But it’s not exactly how God wants his church ran in the latter days.  I knew I had to come back to the fulness of Christ in the church I fully believed in.

I am now 31 years old.  I started going back to church earlier this year (2014).  I am in a great ward with lots of friendly people.  The people in my ward have changed since the days I first got baptized.  But they are definitely full of the spirit and I love them all.

I was saved partly by watching Big Love on HBO.  On one episode it shows Bill reading a Book of Mormon that looks like the ones the LDS Church publishes.  It was blue and reminded me of the first Book of Mormon the missionaries who converted me gave me.  On another episode it shows Bill giving his son the Aaronic priesthood and this is when I knew I wanted to be faithful to my receiving the Aaronic priesthood back when I was 17.  I also watched the episode where Barb goes to the temple and it shows an endowment ceremony.  I read later online that the Church disapproved of showing this and I regretted watching it, but I became very jealous of Mormons who have done this ritual.  I wanted to be one!

The most important thing I did to get me to revert back to my Mormon religion was visiting the Gilbert Temple during their open house.  Before the temple is dedicated, and only Mormons in good standing can go inside, they let the public tour most of the building — even the celestial room.  It was so beautiful!  It made me feel good that people build such majestic and gorgeous structures for God.  I also felt the Holy Ghost with sweet jealousy for Temple-attending Mormons.  I felt like I was doing something Jesus would do.  Even when he was just 12 years old, Jesus got lost from his parents in the Temple.  Many of God’s people have had the privilege of worshiping in a Temple.  In Solomon’s day they had Solomon’s Temple.  In Jesus’ day they had the Temple at Jerusalem.  Now, we have Temples all over the world.  And the one that opened near my house is evidence of God’s majesty in the latter days.  I am so lucky that I got to visit.  At the time, it felt like that was the only way I’d get to go to see a Temple.  But now I know I might get to go someday.

Back in June of this year I tried to contact the missionaries online because I wasn’t sure what I had to do to be Mormon again after being inactive for so long.  On June 30, 2014, they visited me and told me I just had to go to the ward I always went to.  They arranged for somebody to give me a ride to church.  I was so blessed.  For some reason, I thought I might not be able to go.  But there they were providing transportation so I wouldn’t have to wake up my parents so early on their day off work.

Sometimes my mom drives me to church but I am fortunate enough to also have people in the ward who still give me rides from time to time.  I love being Mormon!  3 hours of church every Sunday is not too much for me.  I love every minute of it!

And since I’m still living under my parents’ roof I respect their religion and so I still go to Catholic Mass every now and then when my mom goes to the one in the afternoon.  I’m still at my church if my parents go to the Mass at noon.  Our ward goes from morning to noon.  But if my mom had to work Sunday she goes to the one in the afternoon and I go with her.  But I don’t take the Eucharist.  I get the body and blood of Jesus at Mormon church through what they call the Sacrament.  And I don’t say some of the Catholic prayers I don’t believe in.

Anyway, some Sundays I actually am at some sort of church for 4 hours!  And I have been going to Christmas rosaries with my mom.  Not to brag or anything.  I’m far from perfect.

I don’t fully participate in the Catholic services.  I will say the Our Father because that is in the Bible.  But I don’t pray the Hail Mary even though the beginning to it is also in the Bible because I am not the angel Gabriel to be saluting Mary like that.  Nor am I Elizabeth declaring the fruit of Mary’s womb to be blessed.  But the angel Gabriel and Elizabeth did indeed greet Mary like that as recited in the Hail Mary, so I have no problem sitting with people praying a rosary.  What they do doesn’t seem like idol-worship to me like it does to some Mormons.  Sometimes I do cringe when they pray a prayer called Hail Holy Queen, though.  Hey, I gave it a chance to please my mom and dad!  I’m just not Catholic.

But I’m definitely a Mormon.  I love everything we do at an LDS service.  Nothing makes me cringe.  All of it makes me feel the Holy Ghost fully — especially the singing.  I was invited to sing with the ward choir a few Sundays after church and it made me feel so good that people wanted to hear me sing!

Like I said, I love everything about the Mormon Church.  I love how the Sacrament is administered.  The white cloth that covers the bread and water trays represents Jesus’ funerary clothes.  It is administered by adolescent males just like how the Levites were commanded to be priests as early as adolescence.  All males are called to have the priesthood in LDS doctrine.  Even I hold the priesthood which makes me feel like God wants me to have the authority to think about him and praise him.  I am so thankful for the priesthood.  It is one of the things I love about being Mormon.  I love my Sunday school class because we always have different people and I’m learning Gospel essentials.  I was surprised that they wanted me to attend Elders Quorum because I am not an elder.  But the bishop tells me that, if I am worthy, I can be ordained to the office of Elder and receive the Melchizedek priesthood and go to the temple someday!  This makes me so happy.  Lately, it’s this hope of going to the Temple that is what I live for.

The purpose of this blog is to help me stay strong with the faith.  I was reading in the Bible where Jesus said, “Blessed are the poor in spirit.”  True Christians have in them a spirit of poverty.  I feel so guilty using modern-day luxuries such as TV and the Internet.  I feel like God only wants me to use these decadent machines for spiritual purposes.  So I try to only watch religious programming on TV.  And I want to start this Mormon blog.  I’ve had a couple spiritual journals since I started being Mormon again this year.  I want to start publishing online so I can share my faith with the world.  Enjoy.

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